If No One Will Listen

I have been listening to this song all day. It is one of those songs where you listen close to the words and realize how much you relate to it. And in this song the chorus says 

If no one will listen

If you decide to speak

If no one's left standing after the bombs explode

If no one wants to look at you

For what you really are

I will be here still

I feel that when the chorus says " I will be here still" I feel thats what God is telling me. Even if no one will listen

and after the bomb explodes inside no one is left standing and when people won't look at you nor accept you for what

you really are that God is still there and still here for me still. And I also feel like that is like some of the people in my life

they are there for me no matter what happens...I know a couple of wise people E and M have both told me that crying is not

a weakness but it shows strength. when the song said in the first line " Maybe no one told you there are strength in your tears"

I though mannn thats me... The song is called " If No One Will Listen" by Kelly Clarkson. I love it!

If No One Will Listen - Kelly Clarkson 

What I did

This is all I use to do until I met certain people who told me this was not goo to do! I cant do this anymore. I can have boundaries but no walls. Building walls is not the way to go just because you will never learn and you will never grow has a person mentally emotionally or even physically.

Lovely Weather

Today is such a beautiful day. The weather is absolutely gorgeous and the sun is shining there is a light breeze. Its one of those days where you want to go to the park to sit and relax. Whether you want to read a book or if you just want to journal. I have just truly been relaxing today. I got a lot accomplished, I cleaned my car out and now it looks so fresh and so clean! :-)

I hope this weather continuesss!!!!! Im loving it!

Good Weekendd

So far my weekend has been going pretty well!

Friday night i hung out with my best friend bridgid and we stayed over a friends house to house sit which i absolutey loveddd because i got to actually relaxx and be with the coolest dog ever! Then today i just chillaxed hung around with Bridgid and the doggy and had a wonderful relaxing morning. then had a chit chat with the parentals just figuring stuff out. then i had to go to get a new battery for my phonee!!!!! Then i got the greatest news from my doctor, and I am Healthy as an Ox! Just need to be careful with my back.

Tomorrow on sunday i have a family reunion which i am so excited for! I love seeing my family on my mom's side they get me more. Especially my aunt sara! so im just excited for another day of relaaxing with the family!!! and oh yeah one more thing....

GO REDSKINNSSSSSSS!!!!!!!

Horrifying New of the day!!

  So today I had my regular day of going to school and then going to work! But at school today I had my Biology Lab which for once i really like my teacher!! Anyways, I found out today that i have to DISECTTTT A FETALLL PIGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!! I have to do this  next fridayyy, can i say gross!!! When i think of a aby pig i think of babe or Gordy. I am not sure how i am going to deal with it but i am sure its going to be a mind over matter!!!  I am going to go to sleep now because i am worn out!

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Life is getting pretty crazy!

Life has been getting pretty crazy now that I am in college and trying to balance that with work.

I love going to work just because i really enjoy being with my co-workers and the kids are just amazing. but it can be a lot at one time.

At work its been crazy just because lately we have been having like 8 children in the classroom with 3 teachers and it is hectic and just wild in that room. The reason is because you have so many people in one room with so many different attitudes and different energies going on. and it can just get stressful to handle all the kids and just get them calmed down.  I think the lead teacher in there Mary, who is also a really good friend of mine and my co worker does a great job in there. Whenever I come into work she always greets me with a smile. And no matter what kind of day I was having she would always make me laugh! I love her to death!

Now school has been crazyyyy!!!! But i have been working really hard. and for the most part i have

been enjoying my classes. I really like meeting new people!! So far i am doing pretty well in my classes i have

an A in English, Math, and Fine arts. Then I have a B in Biology and my Biology Lab! College is a lot different

then high school but its okay. I am actually proud of myself for what i have accomplished in school. My first two

exams were pretty intense but i did well. On my Biology exam, i seriously thought I failed it. Instead i got an 80%

and i was so thrilled about it! In my Math class I got a 93% on my exam! I was so pumped about it because i have

never been very good in math! I have a 92% in that class, and I rank number 2 in the class s well. I think the more

i see myself do well in school and actually succeed it makes me have more confidence in myself. Now i have more

faith in myself as well!

Next week i hope it becomes less crazy! Even though i have to disect a fetal pig!!! I am so not looking forward

to that at all!